My Love For You Is Real

Sometimes at night,
When I look to the sky,
I start thinking of you,
And then ask myself "why?"

"Why do I love you?"
I think and smile,
Because I know,
The list could run on for a mile.

The whisper of your voice,
The warmth of your touch,
So many little things,
Make me love you so much.

The way you support me,
Even my silly notions,
The way that you care,
And show such devotion.

The way that your kiss,
Fills me with desire,
And how you hold me,
With the warmth of a fire.

The way your eyes shine,
When you look at me,
Lost with you forever,
Is where i want to be.

The way that I feel,
When you are by my side,
A sense of completion,
And overflowing pride.

The dreams that I dream,
That all involve you,
The possibilities that I see,
The things that we can do.

How you finish the puzzle,
That lies inside my heart,
How deep in my soul,
You are a very important part.

I could go on for days,
Telling of what I feel,
But all you really must know is...
My love for you is real.

Shattered Hope

I look fine to you who see me
seems as though all is well

but what you see is not the truth
and I've a short story to tell 

care not, do I, what you may think
always doing my own thing

but one person's thought does matter
her approval makes me sing 

I try to be a good man
to do that which is right
I try to live as Christ the Lord
to be a shining light

 
I know I fail in many ways
though succeed I do as well
at times I am that bright light
but at others it's hard to tell 

it seemed things were alright
that you and I were fine
we talked at every day's end
but I was walking a thin line

 
one day I dared to ask
to see just what you thought
and great was the pain
when truth was what I sought 

though things had seemed so good
so close to you I felt
you see me as a bad person
and to my knees I knelt 

how could this be
that you see me in such a way
I know that I am imperfect
but a bad person, you say 

shattered were all my hopes
all the dreams of what could be
a future of love between us
forever sealed to fantasy 

and so I pretend I'm well
though in truth I'm really not
I pretend I'm fine for your sake
and I hide the pain I bought

I dreamed about you

I dreamed about you last night,
for this morning my pillow
still had an impression
of the outline of your face.

We were on the beach,
for between the sheets on my bed,
I discovered sand by my feet.

We were holding hands,
for my palm was still warm
and my fingers were formed
in the shape of your hand.

In my dream we must have been kissing,
for my lips were moist,
with your accumulated taste in my mouth.

We fell asleep together,
for my back was cold,
and my forequarters still warm with spooning.

In my dream I still wanted to whisper something,
to enclose you with my one final thought,
for on my tongue I discovered three words:
I and Love and You.

Near you

Near you, I feel safe
Near you, I need no excuse
Near you, I have no need for words to seek
I never feel insignificant, near you
The cold does not reach my heart, near you
There is no longing
I feel carried by so much love

Near you I feel safe
Near you I feel acceptable
Near you I feel good
Near you I learn to live, I have peace, I have courage

Near you I have hope beyond limit
Near you there is no harm
I need offer no gift, near you
There is so much wisdom
I am carried by so much love

Yet I know not how you feel
I know not what you ask
I know not what you think
Yet I know what you carry inside

My Heart

Delicately the finest cobweb hung
zig zag patterns invisible threads spun
to which shiny drops of longing clung
as morn's twilight across open skies strung
my world painted in tiny pictures upside-down
gleaming reflections shimmering as if to drown
amidst shadows of longing cast within my heart

And tiny drops heavily laden
a delicately negotiated burden
for even a trumpeting whisper
their uncertain existence may shorten
and a tiny piece to tear off perhaps
or utterly its fine composure collapse

Scattered

Broken shards shattered
trampled shells scattered
Step down on the shell of  me
The air I breathe I don't deserve
It's only me to remain behind alone
With loathing to cleanse my soul

I'm still holding on
While I remain alone
For all that I used to know
Still I hold on
What I knew is gone
I am alone

For a visit from the fears I wait
A bitter welcome for an unempty soul
As through darkness I fall
I speak out for no one to hear
And slowly I disappear

Fury

Life, Oh furious life
How it drives me
Sexual magical brutal fury
At my finest height
My coarsest depth
Creation inspiration originality passion
Violence pain pure fearless destruction
Giving and receiving blow upon blow
To recover from never
Pursued by its raging intensity
As it dances a furious dance
To create or destroy

Spirit, Oh human spirit
I become the object of your violent rant
Raw brutal animal
This is what we are
And we, civilized to disguise
That terrifying animal
lurking within us

Oh furious creature
Exalted transcendent self-destructive unutterable
Lord of creation

Vulnerably fragile

Glimmering mountain tops stabbing open skies in shades of gray greets me as my mind's eye revisits an arduous journey towards the edge of this precipice on which I now stand. My new found wings I feel spread under bristling feathers, readying for this moment of truth. With keen anticipation I draw the cool air carried on the mountain breeze and start in an exhilarating thrill. I shudder as its fresh caress enters my lungs ...This moment captures my focus as I draw confidence in this fear conquering quest... And I will be as vulnerable and fragile as it is possible for me to be... shredded to the core ... stripped bare... And when I fall ... it will be near your feet.